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from Ban Obara #4
I didn’t realize that Miram-chan is also the type of person who hears various voices in your head when you is watching a live performance. …… But the way you feel is totally different. Interesting.
I’m not sure if it’s a “Wow! is an oddity created by the interaction of various conditions” Believing Miram’s words, I hope to go to live shows with a lighter heart from now on.
And like Miram-chan, I hear such voices on a daily basis. It’s not so much that I hear them, but that they are talking. For a single thing, negative opinions, positive opinions, feelings like it doesn’t matter, feelings like I should keep thinking about it, feelings like I want to throw it all away, feelings like I don’t want to give up, feelings like I don’t want to give up, just plain quibbles, and all sorts of other things are falling down like rain. It’s OK if it’s just a light rain, but sometimes it’s like a guerrilla downpour, and that’s not good.
When Miram-chan said, “I want to go to the concert with Ban-chan” I only laughed because I didn’t want you to be able to enjoy the concert more than usual because of me. I don’t think I have the power to reduce the enjoyment of a live concert, but if “one of the various conditions” includes “the feeling of the people you see together”, then I have a feeling that …… is a good place to start, but explaining this from 1 to 10 would be too long and tedious. But to explain this from 1 to 10 would be too long and annoying, so I said, “Hmmm…. Hmmm”. Sorry.
On a different note, last night! I finished what I had been writing for a long time ( see “vol.1 Winter I really want to overcome” from Kohara-no-mitsu #2). I don’t feel as refreshed as I thought I would, and the pit of my stomach is still heavy, but that’s OK.
I woke up in the morning and without putting on makeup, I took the bus to my former town to buy flowers. The tulip season was already over, so I made a small bouquet while talking with the shopkeeper.
I was so happy that I started talking to myself without being asked, “Well, I’ve finished what I’ve been working on for a long time, and when I’m done, I was thinking of buying some flowers”. I am embarrassed when I recall it. I took the wrong bus on the way home and got off in a town I didn’t know at all. I had no choice but to walk home, and I saw an old lady walking with a cat in her arms. I feel like I gained a little.
